Depth Perception

(you'll have to excuse my old cell phone photo...grainy and blah...tried to fix it 100x's but it didn't want to save it so whatev)

I've been struggling with timing and patience..and patience..and trusting...

yeah, I guess that I've just been all around struggling ;)

yesterday during my quiet time I came across this thought in my study Bible: 
 sometimes life is like looking at a mountain range---from a distance the peaks look like they almost touch each other, but once you get a closer view you realize that they are really miles apart.

I kind of feel like that.

it seemed like- wow, it's finally happening..and it is...but once we reached the top of our mountain, the next peak wasn't just a quick little hop over.

nope...well crap...

looking out on the horizon, we have a lot of work to do.  yes, we are definitely in a season of green pastures and still waters...but there is harvesting and preparing and growing along the way.  

God promises to make our paths straight and to keep us from stumbling.  So, I walk...I follow the Shepard's leading....I hold tight to the hope in His promises...because He is good..He is true..He is the author of my life...the Redeemer of my soul...my fortress...my strength.

Disconnect Vs. Discontent

Blah...


pretty much sums up what I'm feeling lately.


so much to do, no motivation to do it, no timelines--just deadlines.


I feel like I'm in a huge tug of war battle.


one side is this feeling of total disconnect:  like I'm uprooted, just waiting to be transplanted into another garden.


the other side is awe of how much God is blessing us and is providing the way (even when it feels like we aren't making steps forward...it's the behind the scenes God stuff that keeps my head above water right now)


not really sure what to say or feel.  I'm going through a quiet stage I guess (and if you know me personally, you're probably laughing at the thought of that....yeah, hahaha)


I'm going to try and be more present in my life this week...no more of this "out of life" experience..I'm here...life doesn't stop just because I'm stressed.


so, I'm giving myself a dose of my own friendly advice:


Suck it up Buttercup!  


time to go give myself a butt kicking at the gym, a little adrenaline dose will do my mind some good :)